Amy Janet Patricia Longworth

7 YEARS IS TOO LONG


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HERE WE ARE NOW 6 YEARS ON , LIVING WITHOUT OUR BEAUTIFUL GIRL BUT NEVER FAILING TO CONTINUE LOVING AND BELIEVING IN HER LEGACY

updated tributes 13-3-2010


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They shall not grow old as we who are left grow old. Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn. At the going down of the sun and in the morning, We will remember them..

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update 1/8/09
I would like to thank all of Amy's friends who have all helped me find the peace I have needed over the years since losing my daughter, for everything you have told me which I already knew , you have all been so truthful and have remained so loyal and that speaks volumes, everyone who knew Amy and that includes a lot of adults have all said the same things which has helped to heal our pain day by day as we know our daughters name can never be tarnished as long as we live because there are too many caring, honest people who would never allow that to happen because they all knew the real Amy Longworth and their loyalty to her is second to none,
THANK YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART FOR ALL OF YOUR HONEST TRUTHFUL VIEWS AND MEMORIES
YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE, THANKS XXXX IT HAS HELPED SO MUCH ESPECIALLY OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS WHEN A FEW PEOPLE HAVE TRIED TO CONVINCE US THAT WE ARE WRONG TO BELIEVE IN OUR DAUGHTER
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UPDATE 17/7/09
As I no longer come on the GTS site very often now I would just like to show my gratitude and thanks to my gts friends for their continuing support and love they show my beautiful angel daughter Amy with the many wonderful candles,verses and tributes that are left, these mean so much to me as all of your wonderful young angels do to me , my thoughts are always with you all everyday even though I have found a new way of comfort for myself which is what I truly need I appreciate everything you have all done and continue to do,I have found the Peace that I have longed for since losing my daughter and I thought I never would but to my surprise it has come back at long last,I will continue to miss Amy for eternity and my heart will always ache for her but I have found her deep inside my soul and I know she is with me every second, pushing me forward in this life,I have learned so much from her in the last 5 years and I will continue learning on this long road to recovery ( if that ever comes ) but I must try for her sake, my wish is that 1 day all my gts friends will also find this peace in your hearts, we have all been left here for a reason and I believe it is to help others who are going through this terrible pain we all feel, each day there are many more who join our unique status and are all in need of the comfort and help we have all found on this site.
I found a huge comfort in the years prior to all the changes on gts but have found it increasingly difficult since the changeover which is why I sought an alternative, somewhere I can ,think, say,or write anything I feel without being judged , and thankfully I have done so,I have a new private site in which I still write to Amy and tell her how I feel which helps me so much but I do it in private now because I found whatever I was writing was attracting a few mindless people on here who have nothing better to do but to criticise a grieving mother over the loss of her much loved daughter which I know you my friends understand fully.
I wish you all a safe journey along this very long path we all walk and you will always remain in my heart and thoughts
all my love
your friend
Jackie xxx


HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ANGEL XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

A group of friends on Facebook
link is
IN LOVING MEMORY OF AMY LONGWORTH



This is part of my story written about the life of my beautiful daughter which I compiled together from many fitting comments,from many wonderful people who knew her and knew of her well respected behaviour towards others and my own personal knowledge of my daughters character, we have always known the truth about Amy but it has made us so proud to have it all confirmed by many kind honest genuine people especially after a few mindless comments made over the last few years by some who wanted to tarnish our memory

NEWSPAPER ARTICLE PUBLISHED AFTER AMY,S TRAGIC DEATH
WHAT A FANTASTIC TRIBUTE TO A WELL RESPECTED TEENAGER
WHO HAD HER WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF HER BUT WAS SADLY TAKEN FROM US, AMY WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN SHE WILL LIVE ON INSIDE MANY MEMORIES

Tragic Amy inspires school writing contest


Published Date: 30 June 2004
CLASSMATES at Oxclose Community School put their writing skills to the test in memory of Amy Longworth.
Pupils at the Washington school were inspired to write about The Role of the Peacemaker, a title chosen because Amy was skilled at teamwork and sorting out differences between others.

The 13-year-old died in March, after being knocked down while
crossing the A182 Washington Highway.

Her former school, Oxclose Community School, and the Sunderland Echo launched The Amy Longworth Writing Award in her honour.

Lauren Parkinson, 12, of Lambton, won the first prize of £100 and the chance for her work to be published in the Echo.

Runners-up prizes of £25 each went to Jade Carr, 12, of Oxclose, and Ryan Curry, also 12, of Rickleton.

Lauren's article looked at songwriter John Lennon and former South African president Nelson Mandela.

She said: "You don't know much about people who are peacemakers, but we went on the internet and we had some information sheets.

"I learned how many people care for the world."

Amy, of Ayton, in Washington, worked with the Connexions youth service, where she was seen as a good team worker who got people working together.

Mike Foster, headteacher at Oxclose Community School, said: "Our students have shown they can respond to a challenge like The Role of the Peacemaker, which is quite a significant title.

"Also, it's in memory of Amy, which is appropriate because it's about something that she did and was involved in."

Echo editor Rob Lawson said: "It is a fitting tribute to Amy and it's nice her memory will live on in a school where she was well known and respected by many.

"Hopefully, we will make the award an annual event."

WE ARE SO PROUD AT THE TRUE FACTS ABOUT OUR DAUGHTER WHO WAS LOVED AND RESPECTED BY MANY AND WHO WILL ALWAYS BE SADLY MISSED BECAUSE WE ALL KNOW THE WORLD WAS ROBBED OF A WONDERFUL YOUNG ADULT WHO WOULD HAVE MADE SUCH A DIFFERENCE AND CONTINUED HER GOOD WORK BY HELPING MANY AS SHE DID IN HER SHORT BUT FULFILLED LIFE.
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Our love has changed
It’s not the same
And the only way to say it
is say it..it’s better

I can’t conceal
This way I feel
For all the times we spend together
Forever just gets better

Seem what I’m try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
With you here it’s better

I stand by you
If you stand by me
I think it’s time that I reveal it
Cause I believe it
It’s better

Seem what I’m try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
If you’re here it’s better

Ooh the more I write song to you
I’m fall in love with everything you do

Ooh

Seem what I’m try to say is
You make things better
And no matter what the day is
With you here it’s better

Our love has changed
It’s not the same
And the only way to say it
is say it… it’s better

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Hello my darling sorry I have not been for a few days but I have had a few things to sort out , which are now done ,I am as you know going into hospital for my op next week and everything has been up in the air, but now its sorted and I am just relaxing thanks to you,
I have been on the phone to the School as I am requesting a copy of your school records and I have been told they do have them still as they are kept for 10 years which is fantastic it will help me a great deal with my project as It gives an in-depth description of your progress throughout, also your behaviour, your conduct, your attitude towards both fellow pupils and teachers also any problems you had with either your school work or with fellow pupils, I already know of several occasions where you have helped others with their own individual problems but it will be nice to see it recorded in your file then whatever I write can not be classed as hearsay and it will be a true fact and not interpreted in any other way than the way it is meant.
I am so proud of you and how you grew into a wonderful young lady with a beautiful heart inside and out which is what one lady said to me also your teachers commented on how I knew my daughter better than anyone else and I agree they are right and that's what matters, all of this relevant information I am gathering for my project has made us so proud of you Amy because we know only too well like many other parents on this site that they best are always taken from us too soon and believe me there are many many of you Angels who are in that category on GTS .
My story is showing what a beautiful girl you were and how you helped many with your wonderful caring nature even though you suffered from bullying at school you never allowed it to change you from the kind , caring girl you were, you were so unique you even found it in your heart to forgive and help those who had tormented you which I am not sure that I could have done that but its like I have already said you were so unique, you have so many loyal , caring friends who will always remember you, love you and totally respect you and I think that is one hell of achievement for a girl who sadly only had 13 years of life with us but you have left such an impact with many of us Amy,
we will always maintain you were cheated and robbed from living a fantastic life and becoming such a wonderful adult who would have made such a difference in the world and believe me darling nobody can ever take that away from us no matter how hard they try, we are your family and it is our life that has been changed nobody else but we are moving through this terrible nightmare but we are moving through it with our hearts now bursting with pride for our much loved and adored daughter who lives deep inside our hearts and memories forever.
I have woke up today in such a wonderful mood and I can only put that down to you my darling with the things I have been told about you, things I already knew about you as I am your mother and how everyone feels about you and they certainly feel your loss in their own way, hopefully when my story is complete then maybe it will also give them the comfort it gives your dad and I knowing that they have helped us overcome our grief with their unconditional support.
I promise you darling that our life is going to carry on and we are going to make you as proud of us as we are of you but somehow I doubt that there is that much pride left in the world.
My love and hugs I send to you my darling and all of your wonderful new ANGEL FRIENDS and their families, please let them know they are always in my thoughts, I may not be on for a little while but as soon as I am feeling better I will be back lighting candles and writing tributes for them all.

god bless my angels

love

JACKIE

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THE PERFECT SONG

La la la, la la la la la
La la la, la la la la la

Oh baby baby have you seen Amy tonight?
Is she in the bathroom is she smokin' up outside? Oh
Oh baby baby does she take a piece of lime
For the drink that I'm a buy her do you know just what she likes? Oh

Oh oh, tell me have you seen her? cause I'm so oh
I can't get her off of my brain
I just want to go to the party she gon' go
Can somebody take me home?
Ha ha, he he, ha ha, ho

Love me hate me, say what you want about me
But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see?
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

(love me, hate me)
La la la, la la la la la
La la la, la la la la la

Amy told me that she's gonna meet me up
I don't know where or when and now they're closing up the club, oh
I've seen her once or twice before she knows my face
But it's hard to see with all the people standing in the way, oh

Oh oh, tell me have you seen her, cause I'm so oh
I can't get her off of my brain
I just want to go to the party she gon' go
Can somebody take me home?
Ha ha, he he, ha ha ho

Love me hate me, say what you want about me
But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see?
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek amy
Love me hate me
Oh, say what you want about me?
Oh, but can't you see what I see?
(Love me Hate me)
Oh, say what you want about me?
La la la, la la la la la

So tell me if you see her
(let me know what she was wearin, yeah, and what she was like)
'Cause I've been waiting here forever
(let me know what she was goin out of mind)
Oh baby baby if you seek Amy tonight
Oh baby baby we'll do whatever you like
Oh baby baby baby
Oh baby baby baby

La la la, la la la la la
La la la, la la la la la


Love me hate me, say what you want about me
But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me, say what you want about me,
(yeah)
la la la, la la la la
Love me hate me, but can't you see what I see
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

(Love me hate me)
Oh, say what you want about me?
Oh, but can't you see what I see?
(Love me hate me)
Oh, say what you want about me?
All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy.

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THIS SONG COULD HAVE BEEN WRITTEN FOR US AMY XXXXX

"Greatest Love Of All"

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

[Chorus:]
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

[Chorus]

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love
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I TAUGHT YOU WELL BUT YOU ALSO TAUGHT ME SOMETHING MY SWEETHEART ( HOW TO BELIEVE AND HOW LOVE LASTS FOREVER ) AND WE SURELY DO BOTH MY SWEETHEART
updated 13th April 2004


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MY HUSBAND AND I DO NOT WISH AMY TO BE LOCKED AWAY BY FREEZING HER SITE SO WE HAVE DECIDED TO UNLOCK IT
AND CONTINUE TO PAY OUR TRIBUTE TO A WONDERFUL GIRL WHO LIVES IN THE HEARTS OF MANY,
WE ARE SO PROUD OF OUR DAUGHTER AND HER CARING NATURE, SHE HELPED MANY FRIENDS WITH DIFFERENT PROBLEMS THROUGHOUT HER SHORT LIFE, AND SHE WAS INSPIRED TO DO THIS AFTER SUFFERING HERSELF THROUGH THE OUTCOME OF BEING BULLIED AT SCHOOL WHICH CAUSED SEVERAL HEALTH PROBLEMS WITH HER,
THE DOCTOR SAID THE PROBLEMS WERE CAUSED THROUGH THE STRESS OF WHAT WAS HAPPENING AT SCHOOL ALSO THE ANXIETY OF KNOWING HER BOTHER WHO SHE LOVED SO MUCH WAS IN IRAQ DURING THE WAR IN WHICH HE IS A INFANTRY SOLDIER ,
HOWEVER AMY GAINED SO MUCH STRENGTH IN THE LAST FEW MONTHS OF HER LIFE AND SHE HELPED OTHER FRIENDS WHO FOUND THEMSELVES IN A SIMILAR SITUATION AS SHE HAD BEEN IN,
THIS IS ONLY ONE OF THE REASONS THERE WERE VARIOUS AWARDS MADE IN HER NAME SHORTLY AFTER SHE WAS SADLY TAKEN AWAY FROM US,
HER HEAD TEACHER KINDLY ASKED IF WE WOULD AGREE TO AMY HAVING A DANCE AWARD NAMED AFTER HER AS SHE WAS PART OF THE YEAR DANCE CLASS,
ALSO BETWEEN THE SCHOOL AND THE LOCAL NEWSPAPER THEY NAMED A WRITING AWARD AFTER AMY BECAUSE OF HER WONDERFUL ABILITY TO HELP OTHERS,
THE WRITING COMPETITION WAS APTLY NAMED THE ROLE OF THE PEACEMAKER BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT HER TEACHERS AGREED THAT'S SOMETHING AMY WAS VERY GOOD AT AMONGST HER FELLOW PUPILS,
AMY WROTE MANY POEMS TO HER BROTHER IN THE ARMY AND JUST BEFORE SHE TRAGICALLY PASSED AWAY HAD ONE OF THEM PROFESSIONALLY PUBLISHED AND ACCEPTED FOR PUBLICATION IN A YOUNG WRITERS POETRY IN MOTION ANTHOLOGY WHICH MADE HER VERY PROUD BECAUSE IT WAS A SUBJECT VERY CLOSE TO HER HEART,
A GROUP OF FRIENDS ALSO PAID TRIBUTE TO AMY BY TURNING A RUN DOWN PIECE OF LAND BEHIND THE LOCAL COMMUNITY CENTRE INTO A PRETTY GARDEN WHICH IS USED BY THE LOCAL YOUTH GROUP, THIS WAS OPENED BY HER HEAD TEACHER IN HER MEMORY ON WHAT WOULD HAVE BEEN HER 16TH BIRTHDAY IN JULY 2006, FAMILY AND FRIENDS ATTENDED THE OPENING ALONG WITH TEACHERS FROM BOTH PRIMARY AND SECONDARY SCHOOLS ALONG WITH LOCAL COUNCILLORS AND YOUTH LEADERS, THIS WAS A VERY PROUD BUT TERRIBLY UPSETTING AND EMOTIONAL TIME FOR EVERYONE ESPECIALLY HER DAD AND I, THESE ARE ONLY A FEW THINGS THAT MAKE OUR HEARTS BURST WITH PRIDE WHEN WE REMEMBER OUR BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER AND THEY HELP US TO OVERCOME OUR PAIN OF LOSING SUCH A WONDERFUL YOUNG WOMAN WHO IS CERTAINLY A HUGE LOSS TO THIS WORLD BECAUSE WE KNOW WHAT A WONDERFUL ADULT SHE WAS GROWING INTO, THIS IS THE REASON I HAVE DECIDED TO WRITE HER LIFE STORY AND HOPEFULLY I WILL BE ABLE TO COMPLETE IT WITHOUT ANY SETBACKS TO MAKE IT A WONDERFUL TRIBUTE TO A WONDERFUL YOUNG GIRL WHO WHOLE HEARTEDLY DESERVES THE RECOGNITION FOR IT MY BEAUTIFUL AMY XXXXX

A lasting tribute just for amy xxxxx because I love you always

Hi darling we have just been out for a meal and it was really nice and we feel as if we are going to burst, you would have really enjoyed yourself, do you remember how we used to go to the Bush for meals and you were always so excited, you would make us laugh when you were reading the menu it was so funny and when it came to the drinks menu,well what can I say? You had your Dad and me in stitches, you are just like your Dad, you have his sense of humour just so fun-loving a right comedian that's why everybody liked being in your company and why everyone misses you so much, I can just imagine what kind of adult you would have been,you and Laura would never have been in, we would have had to sit on you two, Laura said you would have been out in the car every sunny day just having fun like you always did, remember when we were at the caravan? you and Laura tormenting Dan lol the giggles and the laughter was incredible and we all had so much fun, those were such happy times that no body can take from us they stay in our memories and make us smile so much now instead of the tears we have shed for so long, I told you and promised you that we would live our lives for you and we would be happy for you because we do now believe you are in a much nicer place,we are so privileged to have had you in our lives and to have such a wonderful daughter and you fill our hearts with so much pride Amy, you would be amazed at the things that people have said about you in their memories of you and you would be gob smacked at the comments from your teachers although you knew when you were here what your teachers thought about you because of what they said at parents evening or when we came to the school to speak to them about you,do you remember? We were so proud, this book is going to be such a tribute to you when I have finished it although there is so much to put into it yet It could take some time but time does not matter for something so perfect, I am contacting the education dept. to ask for your whole school record from primary through to secondary so I can put a more accurate description of you from your teachers perception of how they saw you and how they found you were as a pupil ,I already know quite a bit of this information but I would like to know a lot more to get the picture of how you would have developed into the adult we all thought you would be, that's all the information I need now because I have so many other memories and ideas from lots of friends and family of how they think you touched their lives and helped them in whichever way, you certainly had a fulfilled life in the 13 years you were on this earth with us.
You would be really nicely surprised at you primary school teachers comments, you certainly made an impact on her and you will always be thought of with much fondness you should be so proud of your achievement Amy because we are.
anyway babes that's enough for tonight sweetie I will say goodnight and god bless
love you always
mam xxxxx

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MEMORIAL POEM WRITTEN FOR AMY BY HER MOTHER
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THE LOSS OF A CHILD

To lose your child is the hardest loss to bare
No other loss on earth will compare,
Your hearts been broken, your soul ripped in two
This precious child was once a part of you,

You don’t know if you can carry on
Others tell you to be strong,
You struggle with each passing day
The pain in your heart never goes away,

Days and months come and go
The grief you feel begins to grow,
The ache and longing is always there
You sit alone you sit and stare,

Nobody knows what to say to you
You need their help to see you through,
Friends start to drift away
They can’t listen to what you say,

You remind them of what life could be
If it happened to them instead of you or me,
Nobody understands your pain each day
Some look at you and just walk away,

They can’t bare to see you cry
You can’t stop or live a lie,
This is your life now and it’s for real
Your broken heart will never heal,

So if you know a mum who has lost her child
Please try to understand,
She does not need your sympathy
She needs you to hold her hand,

Special days come along
These are days she can’t be strong,
Birthdays, Christmas and Mothers day
Are the days she dreads in every way?

Then comes the day that hurts the most
The day her life changed for ever,
Please let her know the memory of her child
Will stay with you and leave you never

Copyright
Written by Jackie Longworth
In memory of Amy





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JUST FOUND THIS ON THE NET AND HOW TRUE IT IS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


From the heart of a bereaved Mother...


This is now by Unknown
Normal is having tears waiting behind every smile when you realize someone important is missing from all the important events in your family's life.

Normal for me is trying to decide what to take to the cemetery for Birthdays Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years, Valentine's Day, July 4th and Easter.

Normal is feeling like you know how to act and are more comfortable with a funeral than a wedding or birthday party...yet feeling a stab of pain in your heart when you smell the flowers and see the casket.

Normal is feeling like you can't sit another minute without getting up and screaming, because you just don't like to sit through anything.

Normal is not sleeping very well because a thousand what if's & why didn't I's go through your head constantly.

Normal is reliving that day continuously through your eyes and mind, holding your head to make it go away.

Normal is having the TV on the minute I walk into the house to have noise, because the silence is deafening.

Normal is staring at every child who looks like he is my child's age. And then thinking of the age he would be now and not being able to imagine it. Then wondering why it is even important to imagine it, because it will never happen.

Normal is every happy event in my life always being backed up with sadness lurking close behind, because of the hole in my heart.

Normal is telling the story of your child's death as if it were an everyday, commonplace activity, and then seeing the horror in someone's eyes at how awful it sounds. And yet realizing it has become a part of my "normal".

Normal is each year coming up with the difficult task of how to honor your child's memory and his birthday and survive these days. And trying to find the balloon or flag that fit's the occasion. Happy Birthday? Not really.

Normal is my heart warming and yet sinking at the sight of something special my child loved. Thinking how he would love it, but how he is not here to enjoy it.

Normal is having some people afraid to mention my child.

Normal is making sure that others remember him.

Normal is after the funeral is over everyone else goes on with their lives, but we continue to grieve our loss forever.

Normal is weeks, months, and years after the initial shock, the grieving gets worse sometimes, not better.

Normal is not listening to people compare anything in their life to this loss, unless they too have lost a child. NOTHING. Even if your child is in the remotest part of the earth away from you - it doesn't compare. Losing a parent is horrible, but having to bury your own child is unnatural.

Normal is taking pills, and trying not to cry all day, because I know my mental health depends on it.

Normal is realizing I do cry everyday.

Normal is disliking jokes about death or funerals, bodies being referred to as cadavers, when you know they were once someone's loved one.

Normal is being impatient with everything and everyone, but someone stricken with grief over the loss of your child.

Normal is sitting at the computer crying, sharing how you feel with chat buddies who have also lost a child.

Normal is feeling a common bond with friends on the computer in England, Australia, Canada, the Netherlands and all over the USA, but yet never having met any of them face to face.

Normal is a new friendship with another grieving mother, talking and crying together over our children and our new lives.
Normal is not listening to people make excuses for God. "God may have done this because..." I love God, I know that my child is in heaven, but hearing people trying to think up excuses as to why healthy children were taken from this earth is not appreciated and makes absolutely no sense to this grieving mother.

Normal is being too tired to care if you paid the bills, cleaned the house, did laundry or if there is any food.

Normal is wondering this time whether you are going to say you have three children or two, because you will never see this person again and it is not worth explaining that my child is in heaven. And yet when you say you have two children to avoid that problem, you feel horrible as if you have betrayed your child.

Normal is avoiding McDonald's and Burger King playgrounds because of small, happy children that break your heart when you see them.

Normal is asking God why he took your child's life instead of yours and asking if there even is a God.

Normal is knowing I will never get over this loss, in a day or a million years.

And last of all, Normal is hiding all the things that have become "normal" for you to feel, so that everyone around you will think that you are "normal".

THIS IS HOW EVERY GRIEVING PARENT MUST FEEL AS ITS ONLY ANOTHER PARENT WHO FEELS THIS PAIN WHO UNDERSTANDS THESE WORDS


I would like to say to everyone who knew and loved Amy and have had so many nice comments about her, words of comfort for us and caring thoughts since our daughter was so cruelly taken from us over 4 years ago that we would like to thank you all from the bottom of our hearts for helping us through this continuing hard time, we know the pain will never go away but we with your help we are continuing to learn to cope with it, we have been through so much since 13th march 2004 but at least we can now honestly say we can see a light at the end of a very long dark tunnel and we personally put that down to the fact that Amy's very close friends have helped us so much to overcome the torture we went through in our daughters loss also they have helped us laugh in the faces of the few mindless people who tried to ruin our precious memories by way of their lies and malicious gossip regarding our daughter, however Amy's friends ,their families and everyone who knew Amy in whichever capacity whether it being friends, neighbors,teachers,shop keepers, dinner ladies, youth workers and many more have all in their own way helped us to overcome these sad individuals and their ridiculous comments and outbursts by allowing us to remember our beautiful daughter with love and dignity because they knew the real Amy not the made up version, Many of Amy's friends have told me to ignore what was said as they were aware of where it had come from and told me to not to believe it, they confirmed to us what we always knew inside our heart about our daughter and this has given us so much strength, it continues to give us more and more strength each day that comes along that our daughter was and still is so kindly thought about by so many for her loving, caring nature which makes us so proud, we also believe that Amy's soul lives on and helps us tremendously day by day to live with our pain and grief and to overcome anything in our path and helps us to live our life to the best of our ability under the circumstances, we vow to continue to keep Amy Longworth's wonderful memory and legacy well and truly alive and never let anyone destroy that memory.
ALSO
MANY MANY THANKS TO ALL OF MY GTS FRIENDS FOR THE SUPPORT YOU HAVE SHOWN ME OVER THE LAST FEW YEARS I COULD NOT HAVE GOT THROUGH THIS WITHOUT FRIENDS LIKE YOU WHO ARE ALL FEELING THE SAME PAIN AS I DO DAILY, WE ARE LEFT HERE ON THIS EARTH TO HELP EACH OTHER IN THE MANY DAYS OF DESPERATE NEED SO I SEND MY LOVE TO YOU AND YOUR ANGELS TODAY AND EVERY DAY MY THOUGHTS WILL BE FILLED WITH YOU ALL

GOD BLESS YOU AND MAY YOU ALL FIND A LITTLE BIT OF PEACE ON THIS VERY HARD DAY
A CANDLE FILLED WITH LOVE BURNS ALL DAY AND EVERY DAY FOR YOU ALL


IMPORTANT UPDATE 12/9/08
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I have decided to write my story of my daughters wonderful 13 years of life, full of memories from family , friends and everyone who knew her and were touched in some way by her reputation to help others,I am asking anyone who would like to contribute with their own memories of how Amy touched their life in any way whatsoever however good or bad so I can compile a life story tribute to a very exceptional girl
I have been very much inspired to do this by the many messages and comments I have recieved by everyone since the tragic death of my daughter who was loved by many people so much and will always live on in the hearts of of those close to her,

I would like to share with others who did not get the chance to ever meet the real Amy to hear all about her but I dont want it to be only from her mother or family as we have been told so many nice , good things about her that we already knew and had no doubts about,
but we think it would be nice to share we everyone all of the memories that people have of her to allow strangers to our family decide for themselves what kind of a girl Amy was and would have been.
I hope that this will enable me to help some other parent who finds themself in this terrible situation as we have found in the time since we lost our daughter, I hope to inspire any grieving parent to believe that the love of our children and the pain of their loss does stay with us and never leaves us but it does help us with our memories to survive our ordeal
I have added to Amy's photo's a copy of a letter we recieved from a very nice lady who knew our daughter for a short while before her death but in her capacity as a
YOUTH TEAM LEADER DREW UP HER OWN CONCLUSION OF OUR DAUGHTER IN HER OWN WORDS WHICH HAVE MADE US VERY PROUD PARENTS INDEED

MY SONG I CHOSE FOR YOU WHEN WE SAID GOODBYE MY BABY
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PLEASE BY ROBIN GIBB
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So many words I'd like to say to you
(so many words I wanna say to you so listen up now)
So many things I'd like to do for you
(so many things I wanna do to you so come on now)
I count the seconds 'til you're back by my side
The flame only burns when you're here in my life
You're the only one for me

Please tell me how I'll ever get over you
though I know you're gone.... can't believe that it's true
(so listen up now)
please tell me how to ever stop wanting you
(and every beat of my heart)
every beat of my heart
I'll be waiting for you

Time after time my every thought is you
(my every thought is you so listen up now)
Day after day I wanna be with you
(Every day I wanna be with you girl)
Open your heart and I'm sure that you'll see
No words can express what you mean to me
Baby you're my destiny
(so listen up now)

Please tell me how I'll ever get over you
though I know you're gone.... can't believe that it's true
(so listen up now)
please tell me how to ever stop wanting you
(and every beat of my heart)
every beat of my heart
I'll be waiting for you

Waiting for a day when you come back in my life, I
Waiting for a day when all that's wrong is right
Praying for a time when you are here in my arms
Hold you tight, all day and all night

Please tell me how I'll ever get over you
though I know you're gone.... can't believe that it's true
(so listen up now)
please tell me how to ever stop wanting you
(and every beat of my heart)
every beat of my heart
I'll be waiting for you




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Due to a complaint by an individual to GONE TOO SOON about my eulogy to my daughter Because the truth I had written offended them,
I HAVE DECIDED TO UPDATE IT
this is so my daughter can rest peacefully in the knowledge that I will continue to love and defend her until the day I die.
However Amy was known by many all of whom continue to have their own thoughts and memories that nobody can ever change or take away
SO THE WONDERFUL MEMORY OF AMY LONGWORTH WILL ALWAYS LIVE ON
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(AMY JANET PATRICIA LONGWORTH 4thJuly 1990 - 13th March 2004 )

Amy was the youngest child of Jackie & George, she was loved so much by her family and friends,sadly Amy was knocked down and killed as she tried to cross the A182 at WASHINGTON , she was with a girl from School (who told me) the reason they tried to cross that road was because they were afraid to walk through the underpass from the shopping centre as a group of youths had gathered inside ,Sadly as Amy is no longer with us this has never been confimed as there was no other wittness at that point until after the incident which is in all of the police report which I have in my possestion, The route they took for some unknown reason that night would have brought them out at the girls house at the other side of the road but unfotunatly Amy was hit by a Jeep at 70mph and my baby was killed instantly,
Amy was such a caring girl, full of fun , she loved to spoil everyone around her and was always bringing friends home for tea, she was so kind and compassionate to everyone she met,
I was told by a mother of a girl that in the short time her daughter had been friendly with Amy that my beautiful caring daughter had helped her daughter so much with her problems , THIS SAYS EVERYTHING ABOUT MY DAUGHTER, SHE WAS 1 IN A MILLION ALWAYS THINKING AND CARING ABOUT OTHERS,
which is another reason why I question with much doubt Why some people want me to believe my daughter would have so much disregaurd for her own life and safety ?????
this doubt is shared by everyone who loved and cared about Amy because we all knew the real girl and not the girl some are trying to paint their picture of.

Amy always had a smile on her face no matter what was going on in her life and she was devoted to her family, she was beautiful inside and out, in fact AMY had a beautiful soul, she was an ANGEL ON EARTH, although she was a typical teenage girl enjoying life to the full, she had so many plans for her future as she wanted to become a reporter when she left School, Amy was always planning well ahead and even had her prom dress picked out 2 years before the time.
Her family and friends were so very important to Amy, our lives were totally shattered when she was taken from us and we will never be the same again, our home seems empty and lost without the heart that kept us all going, there was never a dull moment when she was around, she had the most beautiful smile and an incredible laugh, We will love and miss Amy until the day we die but I know that although Amy is not here on earth wth us now, she will continue to shine within our hearts and memories for eternity, she will walk with us everywhere we go and be part of everything we do.
Our pain will be with us until we are back together again with our precious daughter. Her life may have been short but it was oh so beautiful from the moment of her birth, Amy will remain forever young & beautiful safely locked away in our hearts for ever, she was not only my daughter but she was my best friend which has left me with a double tragic loss which I can never overcome, I will grieve until my life ends. Jackie Longworth ( Amy's heartbroken mother )